Post by Burnt Black on Jun 27, 2005 20:56:47 GMT -5
Maybe in another life
I could find you there
Pulled away before your time
I can't deal, it's so unfair
Remus Lupin awoke with a start, sweating frantically, he was breathing so fast it felt like he had had a heart attack. His horrible and insufferable bed head hair clinged to his sweaty forehead, he shoved his hand through the tangled mess to get it out of his face. It was raining outside, pouring to be more correct.
It had been exactly one week since the last person the werewolf had looked at as a friend, Sirius Black, killed by his bitch of a cousin Bellatrix Black. Many members of the Order wondered who was taking it worse, him or Harry, the godson Sirius had left behind. Remus hadn't eaten anything since that night...He couldn't help but think in some way this was his own fault.
It had been horrible and what was worse was Sirius' funeral was tomorrow, not that they had a body anyway. Albus and Mirvena had arranged for a remembrance statue to be made. Just the thought of it made the man sick to his stomach.
I'll never forgive myself...' With a loud sigh, and a quick glance at a clock on his night stand he laid down again, listening to the rain beat unmercifully against his bedroom window until he fell into a restless sleep.
And it feels, and it feels like
Heaven's so far way
And it feels, yeah, it feels like
The world has grown cold
Now that you've gone away
It was morning and he had already risen. The rain from last night still hadn't let up as he sipped at his tea, staring blankly at the Daily Prophet. The headline read "Mass Murderer Sirius Black Discovered Dead in Ministry of Magic; Public Demands Explanation" and below it was a much younger picture of his best friend, grinning and waving to him as if they were still in school.
His eyes filled to the brim with tears, he dropped the paper and moved away from the table. Remus ended up sitting on his living room couch, his face was buried into his hands as he sobbed uncontrollably. Suddenly, he heard a somber voice. "Remus? Are you...all right?"
He looked up to see Tonks' head in his fireplace, pausing for a minute before wiping away his tears with his sleeve. "Y-yeah...I'm f-fine, honestly." Remus said with a weak smile at Tonks.
"...If you say so, you certainly don't look it." She stated matter-of-factly, then returned to her somber tone. "Anyway, the memorial thing is starting soon, are you going to port key in?"
"Y-yes, I'll be there soon." Remus said miserably, wiping off his face again. She nodded, then disappeared to leave him alone.
Leaving flowers on your grave
To show that I still care
But black roses and Hail Mary's
Can't bring back what's taken from me
It was later on that day, around noon to be exact. A hooded Remus walked along the lake at Hogwarts, following other members of the Order into the Forbidden Forest. They walked a ways into the forest in silence, until they came to a clearing with several gravestones scattered about the place, two of them were marked "Lily and James Potter.?
In the middle stood a huge statue made of black marble, it looked like an exact replica of the veil Sirius had fallen through. Teary-eyed as Remus was, he stood in silence as Albus stepped forward and said a few words, then patted his shoulder and began to exit the forest followed by the other members except Tonks. "You want me to stay with you a while?" She questioned.
Remus shook his head no, unable to form words at the moment. She nodded, hugged him briefly before turning to go. Tonks stopped suddenly, turning to look at Lupin.
"If you need anything I'm just an owl away, I'll be there if you need anything at all." She said calmly, then continued her way out.
Remus watched her go, then turned back to look at the statue. After a few minutes he moved slightly, pulling two entwined flowers, a black rose and a Hail Mary from his robes. He stepped forward and placed the flowers on the statue, then returned to where he formerly stood.
I reach to the sky
And call out your name
And if I could trade
I would
Remus had port keyed back home a few hours after the ceremony. He?d been forced to stay to talk with other members of the Order, though no one had been very chipper. It seemed that even Snape didn't gloat that his enemy was indeed dead, even though he'd made it clear he loathed Sirius.
He stumbled wearily into his bedroom, his eyes brimming with unshed tears. His entire body shook from the emotions he had been repressing for so long, tears rolling down his scarred cheek as he fell to his knees on the hard floor. "Sirius, please, please..." He begged, not bothering to control his sobs now that he was alone. "You can't be dead, you can'tbe! Oh God, no... I can't lose you too, I can't be the only one left!"
He wept for hours, mumbling to himself that his friend shouldn't have been the one to suffer this fate, that it should have been Sirius who was alive now, mourning Remus. Eventually the last marauder stood and sunk into his bed, silently crying himself to into a troubled sleep.
it feels, and it feels like
Heaven's so far away
And it stings, yeah it stings now
The world is so cold
Now that you've gone away
I could find you there
Pulled away before your time
I can't deal, it's so unfair
Remus Lupin awoke with a start, sweating frantically, he was breathing so fast it felt like he had had a heart attack. His horrible and insufferable bed head hair clinged to his sweaty forehead, he shoved his hand through the tangled mess to get it out of his face. It was raining outside, pouring to be more correct.
It had been exactly one week since the last person the werewolf had looked at as a friend, Sirius Black, killed by his bitch of a cousin Bellatrix Black. Many members of the Order wondered who was taking it worse, him or Harry, the godson Sirius had left behind. Remus hadn't eaten anything since that night...He couldn't help but think in some way this was his own fault.
It had been horrible and what was worse was Sirius' funeral was tomorrow, not that they had a body anyway. Albus and Mirvena had arranged for a remembrance statue to be made. Just the thought of it made the man sick to his stomach.
I'll never forgive myself...' With a loud sigh, and a quick glance at a clock on his night stand he laid down again, listening to the rain beat unmercifully against his bedroom window until he fell into a restless sleep.
And it feels, and it feels like
Heaven's so far way
And it feels, yeah, it feels like
The world has grown cold
Now that you've gone away
It was morning and he had already risen. The rain from last night still hadn't let up as he sipped at his tea, staring blankly at the Daily Prophet. The headline read "Mass Murderer Sirius Black Discovered Dead in Ministry of Magic; Public Demands Explanation" and below it was a much younger picture of his best friend, grinning and waving to him as if they were still in school.
His eyes filled to the brim with tears, he dropped the paper and moved away from the table. Remus ended up sitting on his living room couch, his face was buried into his hands as he sobbed uncontrollably. Suddenly, he heard a somber voice. "Remus? Are you...all right?"
He looked up to see Tonks' head in his fireplace, pausing for a minute before wiping away his tears with his sleeve. "Y-yeah...I'm f-fine, honestly." Remus said with a weak smile at Tonks.
"...If you say so, you certainly don't look it." She stated matter-of-factly, then returned to her somber tone. "Anyway, the memorial thing is starting soon, are you going to port key in?"
"Y-yes, I'll be there soon." Remus said miserably, wiping off his face again. She nodded, then disappeared to leave him alone.
Leaving flowers on your grave
To show that I still care
But black roses and Hail Mary's
Can't bring back what's taken from me
It was later on that day, around noon to be exact. A hooded Remus walked along the lake at Hogwarts, following other members of the Order into the Forbidden Forest. They walked a ways into the forest in silence, until they came to a clearing with several gravestones scattered about the place, two of them were marked "Lily and James Potter.?
In the middle stood a huge statue made of black marble, it looked like an exact replica of the veil Sirius had fallen through. Teary-eyed as Remus was, he stood in silence as Albus stepped forward and said a few words, then patted his shoulder and began to exit the forest followed by the other members except Tonks. "You want me to stay with you a while?" She questioned.
Remus shook his head no, unable to form words at the moment. She nodded, hugged him briefly before turning to go. Tonks stopped suddenly, turning to look at Lupin.
"If you need anything I'm just an owl away, I'll be there if you need anything at all." She said calmly, then continued her way out.
Remus watched her go, then turned back to look at the statue. After a few minutes he moved slightly, pulling two entwined flowers, a black rose and a Hail Mary from his robes. He stepped forward and placed the flowers on the statue, then returned to where he formerly stood.
I reach to the sky
And call out your name
And if I could trade
I would
Remus had port keyed back home a few hours after the ceremony. He?d been forced to stay to talk with other members of the Order, though no one had been very chipper. It seemed that even Snape didn't gloat that his enemy was indeed dead, even though he'd made it clear he loathed Sirius.
He stumbled wearily into his bedroom, his eyes brimming with unshed tears. His entire body shook from the emotions he had been repressing for so long, tears rolling down his scarred cheek as he fell to his knees on the hard floor. "Sirius, please, please..." He begged, not bothering to control his sobs now that he was alone. "You can't be dead, you can'tbe! Oh God, no... I can't lose you too, I can't be the only one left!"
He wept for hours, mumbling to himself that his friend shouldn't have been the one to suffer this fate, that it should have been Sirius who was alive now, mourning Remus. Eventually the last marauder stood and sunk into his bed, silently crying himself to into a troubled sleep.
it feels, and it feels like
Heaven's so far away
And it stings, yeah it stings now
The world is so cold
Now that you've gone away